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Madeline Shalonov

 

I wake up to a toasted everything bagel 

with cream cheese and numerous seeds to touch. 

We are sitting in the dining room of the hotel,

brought together by a tragedy 

that occurred many years ago in my family

and altered the horizon where the sun sets.

 

We received the phone call at sunset 

as my dad was buying bagels 

telling us that we had lost a member in the family. 

At that moment, I lost my sense of touch. 

None of us had ever experienced tragedy,

especially while on vacation in a luxurious hotel. 

 

My mother stood motionless on the roof of the hotel,

staring into the midst of the sunset

with the unintentional desire to create more tragedy.

She was on the edge of the roof, stiff like a stale bagel

that has been left out for too long. I touched

her hand and pleaded “please don’t do this to our family.”

 

We had always been a close-knit family 

that consistently traveled and stayed in five-star hotels.

My brother and I played the game of whose hand can touch

the floor of a pool first as the sun sets 

above our heads and the smell of toasted bagels

consumes the air…if only we could go back to life before tragedy.

 

Who knew such a perfect family could undergo tragedy?

I sure didn’t. I know there is no such thing as a perfect family,

but we were as close as the seeds on an everything bagel.

Everything changed one night at a hotel

where my brother snuck out after sunset 

and that was the last time we were ever in touch. 

 

My brother had a way of words that always touched 

everyone in the room. It is a tragedy 

to lose someone whose character was as vivid as a sunset.

Even though I always knew he was the favorite in the family, 

I would do anything to not be sitting in this hotel, 

grieving his soul over a breakfast buffet of bagels.

 

I touched my mother’s hand at the table with my family.

As she learns how to cope with this tragedy at a hotel,

I stare out the window into the sunset and finally take a bite of my bagel.

 


Madeline Shalonov is majoring in biological sciences. She will graduate Rutgers class of 2027. She is from Haworth, New Jersey, and enjoys traveling and going on runs in her free time.

Madeline wrote this poem in a course taught by Joanna Fuhrman, who selected the piece for inclusion in WHR.