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Devon Borkowski<\/em><\/h4>\n

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We did not have a funeral.
\nI wore my grandfather\u2019s overshirt for a month
\nAnd talked to you every day
\nThough rarely about the absence
\nHow I hate the word loss.<\/p>\n

You did not mention the newly occupied urn
\nOnly in my reaching out
\nI just fucking need you right now
\nHiding behind
\n\u201cI\u2019m so sick of hearing I\u2019m sorry\u201d
\nIf I could trust myself for nothing
\nI could trust you for that
\nYou were never the gentling hand<\/p>\n

Pull me out the ocean
\nWatch me cough seawater on the shore
\nThe desire to drown lingers
\nThere is not so much to swim towards
\nBut you keep dry land beneath my feet
\n\u201cTime does not give a fuck about your plans
\nAnd plans to be a dick as well\u201d
\nNever gentle
\nAlways kind<\/p>\n

That night I sat with the phone \u2018twixt my knees
\nHeld the back of my hand over my mouth
\nFace pressed to the bed while I heaved
\nYou couldn\u2019t know how much I needed to hear it
\nThat the world just doesn\u2019t care<\/p>\n

You won\u2019t take to heart a thank you for this<\/em>
\nFor setting our tangled mess aside
\nLetting me laugh with the weight still on me
\nLetting it be ugly and messy
\nIn every way that can\u2019t be helped
\n\u201cThat\u2019s what life is about, Dev. Hiccups and snorts.\u201d
\nWhile I wipe snot off my smile<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll say here instead-
\nI hope you know
\nWhat it meant to me.<\/p>\n

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Devon Borkowski<\/strong> is a Visual Arts Major with a concentration in painting. She will be graduating in the class of 2022. She was raised in Shamong, a small town in the Pine Barrens of New Jersey. Devon wrote this poem in memory of her grandfather, and as a \u201cthank you\u201d for a good friend.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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