{"id":791,"date":"2020-04-17T17:38:33","date_gmt":"2020-04-17T17:38:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sites.rutgers.edu\/writers-house-review\/?page_id=791"},"modified":"2020-08-23T16:45:42","modified_gmt":"2020-08-23T16:45:42","slug":"asra","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sites.rutgers.edu\/writers-house-review\/whr-volume-1\/asra\/","title":{"rendered":"Pre-conscious"},"content":{"rendered":"

By Asra Mazhar\u00a0 <\/em><\/h4>\n

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\u00a0<\/em><\/h4>\n

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    \n
  1. Experimental\/Prologue<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

     <\/p>\n

    I don\u2019t always feel the pain,<\/p>\n

    not anymore<\/p>\n

    not since the pills,<\/p>\n

    but when I do, I want to grasp it,<\/p>\n

    hold it like it\u2019s a wisp of smoke or keep it like<\/p>\n

    a seashell, a sea\u2019s hell, that sounds like<\/p>\n

    the ocean. I want to hold it and feel it<\/p>\n

    between my teeth on the tips of my eye<\/p>\n

    lashes I want it to move me like music<\/p>\n

    mark me like stretch marks I want to wear<\/p>\n

    it like a skin because that\u2019s when I know.<\/p>\n

    I\u2019m alive when I become a home to something<\/p>\n

    fleeting – like a dream I can\u2019t tell apart from<\/p>\n

    a memory.<\/p>\n

    Tangible is two letters and a reflection away<\/p>\n

    from tangled,<\/p>\n

    Tri-angled \u2013<\/p>\n

    Like the veins in the wrist that<\/p>\n

    hurts so I\u2019ll lick it and<\/p>\n

    taste \u00a0\u00a0the\u00a0 \u00a0salt.<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

      \n
    1. 24 hours\/Epilogue<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

       <\/p>\n

      I think that my blood will taste like<\/p>\n

      Blue raspberry, soapy like bubbles, soapy<\/p>\n

      like operas, soupy like jellyfish soup, stingy<\/p>\n

      like summer or sakura, spongy and perhaps<\/p>\n

      grungy – roaring like rhapsody in the space<\/p>\n

      between my ears.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Blood<\/p>\n

      to settle the stomach\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0Blood<\/p>\n

      to settle the war\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Blood<\/p>\n

      to thicken the water\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Blood<\/p>\n

      for irony\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Blood<\/p>\n

      for iron deficiency\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 –<\/p>\n

      Deficient like everything else, defiant like<\/p>\n

      what I want to be, degrading like sitting with my<\/p>\n

      legs open in front of my mother \u2013 martyr \u2013 marker \u2013<\/p>\n

      Marble, like a wisp<\/p>\n

      Marble,<\/p>\n

      Like my wrist that<\/p>\n

      hurts so I will lick it and<\/p>\n

      taste\u00a0\u00a0 the\u00a0\u00a0 salt.<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Asra’s Bio:\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

      I’m a double major in English and Human Resources Management with a passion for poetry.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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